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Busy Busy Busy I like Alice Sebold too! Have fun and B careful. TTFN! [virgin girl] 2004-03-23 02:07:41

Let's talk about sex!!! hi, i do not know you in real life, i just read your diary :) i probably should not be surpries if i knew you personally but i only read the diary which has a pretty big pause in it. and people change over the years, especially if you do not see or hear from them :) i am sorry that your ass hurts, next time you drink a lot tell him to go easy ;) i hope you will continue writting in your journal cause i like reading it :) [fireblade] 2004-03-09 23:31:10

2 days off in a row!!! Whats a girl to do...? Hello, I was reading you diary and it is very interesting. I must say I am a bit surprised by your sexuall change but good for you. Having great sex is very importnant in life. I suppose you two have tried a lot of new stuff. Have you tried having anal sex? [fireblade] 2004-03-06 00:38:03

2 days off in a row!!! Whats a girl to do...? Welp...You asked me why he got locked up and how long he's been in jail...and he got locked up, thinking because he stole some stuff and hes 18 so they tried him as an adult and then hes been in there for 5 months on the 9th... I'm glad that you have good sex with him LoLz! At least SOMEONES getting some LoLz [SuziiSausage21] 2004-03-04 02:10:42

Very Tired:( hey, at least you get hours! i'm gonna hafeta get another job, meaning 2 part time, cuz i can't get enough! o and i totally want "pimptastic" (like the word) phone like that. mines really small, but it doesn't have like a whole freaking orchestra that plays in it. those phones are much sweetness! [Jewels1286] 2004-03-03 20:08:29

Pretty Crappy sorry to hear you are sick and i will be 22 actually on wednesday. and i have always had a low self esteen but growing up i always been chunky compared to other kids but when i got older i just didnt care anymore what anyone thought of me but take care and keep your head up tabby [tabby22482] 2004-02-20 00:05:37

What an awesome Valentines Day!!! Glad you had a good v-day! Yea, I can't drink anymore, haha. And I need to tan. I'm probably the only Asian in the world that needs to tan. That was nice of them to give your jewelry back, lmao. Your baby sounds like a sweetheart. Especially cuz he loves your blue eyes, haha... [Away From Me] 2004-02-17 03:49:53

What an awesome Valentines Day!!! well im glad you and joey had a great vday together. mine sucked cuz im so far away from kevin right now but we are gonna celebrate it in 10 days when i get back home. and even if you could get money outta your account he still should pay i mean it was vday and all take care girl [tabby22482] 2004-02-17 01:07:24

Awww....I've had a bad day today:( Aww!!! I'm so sorry you had a bad day! You're GOVT teacher should die, pretty much. And those people who are assholes to you. Have fun with Romeo and Juliet though... [Away From Me] 2004-02-15 18:07:06

Awww....I've had a bad day today:( well i hope the rest of your night went better for you and for the ppl that you hate that hate you i would just ignore them. dont let them get to you and ruin your whole day. just show them that you're better than them. if you ever need someone to talk im here for ya and i hope you had a great valentines day byes tabby [tabby22482] 2004-02-14 22:13:23

I'm kinda teed off man.... hey.....thanx for commenting in my diary. but ya im 14. yea im lil lol. but ur right that guy wuz the cuttie in my group. but theres soo many other guyz in that gym class that like me so its all good! well ttyl ~Cindy~ [xXLilChickaXx] 2004-02-04 20:18:34

I'm kinda teed off man.... The sad thing is, you weren't the only one, lol. I went to word and tried that too. As I'm sure many others did, but they won't admit it, haha... That's kinda cool how you and Joey meet people to hook up with through MDD, lol! How old are you guys? That's gay that his dad wouldn't let him out. [Away From Me] 2004-02-04 04:04:15

I'm kinda teed off man.... well thanks for the advice and you dont need to put up with a guy that dont have a job. men are so lazy in this world anymore. they want the woman to pay for everything. it just hurts right now with me and timmy not being together i guess cuz im carrying a part of something he made but it will get better i suppose. but if i were you trust me timmy was 18 when i first got with him and never kept a job more than 2 weeks i would throw him out and find someone new [tabby22482] 2004-02-03 21:05:55

Oh my goodness!! Haha, no shit. You can't top my stupid cop stories... One time, I was just TANKED with my friends. And we thought it would be fun to go climb trees in the park in the middle of the day. So we're up in a tree, and 2 cops drive by, both flip a bitch, sirens goes on, and they step out of the car and were like, "Do you kids know that it's illegal to climb trees? I've half a mind to arrest you kids." He never even figured out that we were plastered. Then he realized that we're supposed to be in school. So they make us get in the 2 cop cars, and kindly escort us back to school, with the sirens on, haha. Then walks us to the dean's office. The dean and the cops had no fuckin clue we were all drunk and stoned, lol. But everyone else in the school seemed to notice. Damn cops... I live in a small town, and they're huge pricks here. But then again, all cops are. So yea, climbing trees on property that isn't yours, is fucking illegal. Gay... [Away From Me] 2004-02-02 00:00:56

Oh my goodness!! Lol, that sounds...umm...interesting... [Away From Me] 2004-02-01 23:11:50

Sad news, but i have to hey thanks for greeting me the first time i came here to this fucked up site. i do have an interesting life, i hope you have one too. and i'm sure they all miss you very much, bitch. bye now! [Fucking_Anonymous] 2002-12-14 21:37:21

Sad news, but i have to i'll miss u sweeety come back sooon love, [DeViLiShAnGeL69] 2002-10-13 08:57:05

Sad news, but i have to awwww! im sorry babe! I love and will miss u!! MUAH XOXOX [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-08-08 22:35:29

Sad news, but i have to nooooooooo!!! *sigh*, i guess a girl's gotta do what a girl has got to do. have fun with joey. =) you betta come back once in a while like you said. maybe i'll ttyl. have fun with your paper diary! it sounds like a good idea. but then again, my friends read all the bad stuff. haha...soooo....not good. EVEN when i have a lock. ain't that nice? well, be careful what you write. don't write something you'll regret later. hell, my friend printed out MY diary pages. just so she could embarass me....shit. in school?! *grrr*...she betta not! ok, hun. i'll ttyl. byes for now. ~pokey~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv] 2002-07-31 20:14:14

Sad news, but i have to Noo! Dont leave let ^-^ Your entries were awesome! Keep writing no matter what! You always had something funny to say which is a good thing. Take care! Hopefully, I can catch yah on this site one of these days^-^. Peace girl.. ~Ngoc [aznelite708] 2002-07-28 02:44:34

Sad news, but i have to What?! OMG! we need you here! lol! seriously tho! i have thought a lot about getting a paper diary(i have one in my room that i write in evey now and then like when something really big happens or someones dies or something i just wanna write) but i never left b/c i can still write in my diary in my room about the *Good* stuff but on here i just talk...it's not good enough to put in my paper diary! loL! and i do hope every now and then you write b/c we would miss you too much! [SweetChicky] 2002-07-26 22:48:16

Sad news, but i have to I undastand, I was thinkin bout domakin a paper diary too. But anywayz, I'm really gonna miss ya. *hugs* Itz been kewl readin ya diary, n I'm gonna miss readin da daily bitz bout ya life. Try ta come back n write as much as ya can, hehehe. Take care of yaself. *hugs agains* [Ice] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-26 01:07:55

Sad news, but i have to awww.....well you guys, ya know what. even though im leaving.........we can all talk through email......just cause i ain't on dear diary, don't mean i don't get on the puter......just email me at..........lil_blondie219@mindspri ng.com.....ok.i love you guys. bye bye. [Sweet Melissa] 2002-07-25 23:17:06

Sad news, but i have to awe, well i kno how u feel have fun with ur new diary an were gone b here if ya wana come bak!!!!!! miss ya! bubyes~jess [Shimmy Dancer 22] 2002-07-25 22:36:51

Sad news, but i have to :( I'll miss you gurl. *tears up* Well I hope to here from you from time to time maybe lol. cya! [InsanitysLover] 2002-07-25 22:20:47

Sad news, but i have to nooo! you can print ur diary out! If you leave, whos diary will I read now that actually is interesting and tells about their relationships?(even the nasty freaky stuff) lol [danes bia] 2002-07-25 19:22:34

Sad news, but i have to OMG! this is bad news! can we talk through, email please? because we have become such good friends, we really have, and i want to continue talking to you, cause ya, i am going to start a paper journal as well, but babes, please, email??? DuvessanBeauty@aol.com please! email me! i will miss u so much, i really will! much love and care, always and forever! [ErynM] 2002-07-25 17:59:01

I think I'm ready... That is the BEST part about going back to school. Buying all the supplies. It is like a brand new part of ya. You get to start over (sorta, in some cases) and the new school supplies help you start over. Well toodles, luv ya babe. [gonnaBwanted] 2002-07-24 12:26:59

I think I'm ready... Yea, school shopping is kickass sometimes I get all these gel pens and mechanical pencils and crap...That was way bogus you didn't get ta see Joey but at least you talked to him though ^-^ Well, take care, ciao! ~ngoc [aznelite708] 2002-07-24 00:12:58

I think I'm ready... Have fun at work.....srry I haven't writen notin for a lil but now I just did.~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-23 00:27:56

I think I'm ready... that sux err [bitesizdbo] 2002-07-23 00:21:57

I think I'm ready... hi girl! i also love to school shop! it's so funnn! and your parents will let you spend their extra money for a 'good cause'! lolllll! well, i'll ttyl. be byes. ~nicole~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv] 2002-07-22 20:55:47

I think I'm ready... *gives you a hand for making it through another day* Maybe you'll be able to see Joey tomorrow. I don't know how you make time for it all. Well ttyl. [InsanitysLover] 2002-07-21 22:42:45

I think I'm ready... hee hee, great system, usually what i like to do, is call Josh on my cell, then so that i dont use my minutes, and he has call waiting, i can call on my reg house phone, and he is the only one who hears it, and so it is all good, and we can talk to a long time. yup, well thanks, have fun with joey! [ErynM] 2002-07-21 22:22:42

I think I'm ready... I'm wid ya thea, skool shoppin iz prettay fun, hehehe. If my mom lets me spend lotsa money that is. =) Iz kewl u n joey got a secret phone thingy, think I should do somethin like that wid a friend, dat b kewl, hehehe. Well I gotz ta jetz, take care. [XtremeIce] 2002-07-21 22:13:10

I think I'm ready... hey!! that sux that you coulnt see Joey. And about the one phone ring my sister and her boyfriend do that and me and my boyfriend used to do that too. lol [SweetChicky] 2002-07-21 13:25:24

I think I'm ready... You know how I feel? So I'm not alone in this world...? [Downcastskies] 2002-07-21 02:43:31

work in 6 hours booo I know, i found them at my spencers actually earlier today, i know i may not let ne one keep them, but if i am in the mood to play some, they are cool. i love spencers. i got the glow in the dark ones, hee hee, fun fun, well okay then... ya i have to work tomorrow too, and i worked today. well thanx! much love! [ErynM] 2002-07-20 21:41:40

work in 6 hours booo Shit I'm glad I don't have a job right now. I would pull my hair out if I had to work that much. I'll be getting a job soon though. I just can't wait!! *fake ass grin* cya [InsanitysLover] 2002-07-20 14:43:56

work in 6 hours booo Ughh I would hate working that much. i dont have a job yet but im probably gonna get one in February after my b-day. [SweetChicky] 2002-07-20 12:53:52

work in 6 hours booo Ehh...work in the summer sucks. Hopefully ya get a day where you just sit around and don't have to care about anything. ^-^ Well, take care! ~ngoc [aznelite708] 2002-07-20 12:31:40

work in 6 hours booo O shit I have to work tom. to but I don't give a shit cuz i'm staying up and even though I have to get up at 9 in da morrin and work tell 10 at night i'm not goin to bed tell 5 in da morrnin. Well Have fun at work tom. and don't forget to drop some words in my doary. paz..~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-20 01:25:42

short entry Dang sounds like u had some mad crazy fun.......well ttyl paz ~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-20 00:49:30

short entry Hey, i meant to ask u this, but it deleted my comment last time (stupid comp) but ne wayz... where did u get those dice things, cause i am looking for some! Hee hee, much love! [ErynM] 2002-07-19 23:32:24

short entry Glad ya had a fun tym. =) [Ice] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-19 20:50:00

short entry crap!!! it didn't come out!!! ok...hold on. it came out as a period i think...h/o... ok. do the normal < B > (without the spaces inbetween) then to end it you do < / B > get it? k. i hope it works for you unlike me! [pokeyluckyduckyinluv] 2002-07-19 19:39:49

short entry hahahaha....vicious couple. jk. i know what that feeling is...tired i mean. i've been tired all friggin' week. i'll ttyl. o! to end the BOLD or Italic....you do . with the slash in front of the B or I. w/o the period though. i hope it works for ya! you'll get used to it soon enough. byes for now. ~nicoley~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv] 2002-07-19 19:38:00

short entry First off I wanted to say thanks for the comment secound off man ya'll play like Coby and I do coby bites me and grawls at me lol well anyways I just tickle him and well anyways I guess I'll talk to ya later keep reading and writeing comments I love to here them...melissa [cobysgirl31682] 2002-07-19 18:43:42

short entry lol, you sounds just liek em and Dane. We always play around like that, its so fun. I bite him too...hehe. he always bites my boobs too, ok that might sound weird...lol [Danes Bia] 2002-07-19 13:01:57

A "going away party" he he he Havent read but say 2 of your entries, keep me entertained, lol, thanks for the comments on mine and so now I need to ask why last night was the last time? [FamousLinz] 2002-07-18 10:29:29

A "going away party" he he he noooo your confused, he wasn't thinking HE was gonna do that to me.......he thought I was gonna do it to HIM.but i'd never. [Sweet Melissa] 2002-07-18 04:52:28

A "going away party" he he he lol ur a nerdo!! glad ur last night was fun at least and good!! and that sux tha the said that maybe he said that because hes thjinking he is guna do that to you? [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-18 02:55:03

i think its all gonna be looking up soon heyy!!! joeys mom is a PSYCHO!! and a sicko [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-18 02:52:39

A "going away party" he he he Oh ya I just wonted to let u know I do read ur all da time. And ya u should E-Mail me some time at LIL_b._BALLER.b@cmballaz.zzn.com Well g2g ttyl. ~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-18 01:44:05

A "going away party" he he he God damn.......sounds like u were busy tonight. Well hope u had fun and ur man is a lucky ass guy. Well ttyl. ~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-18 01:37:05

A "going away party" he he he When did I say i didnt like him nemore. i love him. Now were just having some probl;ems I guess, but every relationship has those. Trust me, if you guys adte this long, then ull understand. [Danes Bia] 2002-07-18 01:20:13

i think its all gonna be looking up soon interesting. i like. write more. [dani_babe7] 2002-07-18 01:19:58

A "going away party" he he he Interesting.....sounds like you had a fun day lol. See ya. ~*Mandie*~ [Rockerchic87] 2002-07-18 01:15:56

i think its all gonna be looking up soon Oh ya if ur ever in colorado springs come visit me and we can have a waterballon fight. ~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-17 23:46:29

i think its all gonna be looking up soon Dude weres my car??????? Oh ya dats right.........the LLAMAS took it. Well hope u had fun. ~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-17 23:17:57

i think its all gonna be looking up soon Oh do you have dad probs too? I hold grudges so I don't think a jog will work for us lol. Yeah you do stink...go take a shower ;) lol jk jk jk [InsanitysLover] 2002-07-17 22:28:01

i think its all gonna be looking up soon Hey Melissa, your BF gave you the biggest proove he could by standing with you! I wish you all the best and enjoy every single minute of true love with your sweetie:)! [Blue Dolphin] 2002-07-17 19:25:44

i think its all gonna be looking up soon Yup, I wid ya thea, when u stay up on da phone wid someone till around da mornin, da conversations do seem to get a bit more interestin. =) [Ice] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-17 11:39:10

i think its all gonna be looking up soon Sry...I didnt read the hwole thing...My grama got me up early and i didnt go to bed till about 4:30..ands its 7 noq.... [SouthernBell] 2002-07-17 07:06:20

you guys, this sucks To answer ur question, me and Dane have been together for 10 months. K, now to your lil entry. OMG, That bites! I know how you feel though cuz sometimes when me and Dane are doing stuff, my bro trys to break in the room, so we hafta be extra careful. But ur right, you guys have only been dating 3 months, u have plenty of time for all that stuff. I dunno, I just cant figure out how ur gonna like stop doing that stuff, its hard! I can see why Joey was upset about it at first, I mean guys love all that kinky shit, and then to take it away from them? lol. Well, atleast he relized he has hurt ur feelings.Good luck. [Danes bia] 2002-07-17 02:13:55

you guys, this sucks Damn....parents suck....I mean they should give der kidds more privesce.....but I hope every thing works out......~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-16 23:02:14

neat.....i think haha Daaaaaamn dats some crazy shit......well i'll ttyl so peace. ~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-16 23:00:33

you guys, this sucks OOOO shittiez, I woulda been skurred to DEATH too if my dad went in my room durin a time like dat mayn. Sorryz bout it mayn. But it soundz like ya dad a prettay kool dad. He seems to understand and except what ya doingz wid ya boy. Datz a good thing. Wish my parentz let me date, lol. I bet u guyz will make it through it too, cause if u truly love someone, u can get through any obstaclez fate handz ya. Well I gotta jetz, t-kz. [Ice] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-16 22:57:13

you guys, this sucks OMG YOU GUYS!! JOEY FOUND MY DIARY!!! im gonna have to change the name k.......but i'll tell yall where i move it to. omg i wish he wasn't in bed. this sucksssssssss. omg. now i can't like keep all my pages. I'LL PRINT ALL 130293U40238 OF THEM OUT. yea. ok damnit joey. you idiot. i hate him.....hes too smart for his own good. damnit. [Sweet Melissa] 2002-07-16 22:57:11

you guys, this sucks WOW, Close call! [BringOnTheRain] 2002-07-16 22:36:10

you guys, this sucks Major suckage. If my dad walked in on me I would have told him to fuck off. But we don't get along at all though. If I was with my man he could kiss my ass for all I could care. I feel the love between me and my dad *sarcasm* [InsanitysLover] 2002-07-16 22:35:01

you guys, this sucks lol.....well THAT mustve been awkward! if my dad ever caught me doing something like that, he'd kill me and the guy after he called everyone we knew and told them what evil things were happening and embarras us. ur dad seems really cool though and ur lucky to have him discover it instead of ur mom. lol...well joey really loves u! u can tell if hes ok with just kisses on the cheek and holding hands and stuff. but even if u were fooling around then u can still get pregnant or std's and stuff like that. take care! [bitesizdbo] 2002-07-16 22:26:32

you guys, this sucks I would hate fer somethin like that to happen to me..that sucks all tha way..well, at least your mom didn't find out..if my mom caught me w/ my bf she would probably get a knife and chase him down the street or whatever..ehehehz. Hopefully that doesnt happen but I know she would do something crazy like that..you know how parents are these days..sorry I havent been here in a while..gettin tangled and twisted in life =P well, take care; latez! [ngoc] [aznelite708] 2002-07-16 22:12:52

you guys, this sucks wow that shows that he really loves you. congrats. and i dont hate you what are you talking about. [Punk tastic] 2002-07-16 22:10:25

you guys, this sucks hey hunny@ DAMNNNNN!!!!! that sux.. once my mom caught me lieing in bed w/this guy aaron he was like fingering me and stuff but there was a blanket over us and stuff so she didnt know and she just said to keep the door open hahaha so now when guys come over the door hasta stay open whatever though. [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-16 21:32:57

neat.....i think haha lol haha i dont know what to say..um WELCOME TO THE CLUB Lol [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-16 21:28:45

you guys, this sucks That is one of the worst places to be. I feel for ya. (ok, i usually don't say shit like that, but oh well.) well, toodles, talk to ya later. [gonnaBwanted] 2002-07-16 21:24:15

you guys, this sucks I uauasly dont do that..YOu know meet guys off the net...But I jus did and im lucky he wasnt a old gezzer...LOL..thanks for the comment...hope i see i see more comments frm you in my diary...^_^.... [SouthernBell] 2002-07-16 19:17:56

neat.....i think haha no were not having sex......and you'll see whats going on when i update:( [Sweet Melissa] 2002-07-16 17:18:08

neat.....i think haha hehe, thats funny. I bet he was suprised. Have fun. [danes bia] 2002-07-16 16:31:51

neat.....i think haha WHOA. thas some freaky sh*t!!!! HAHA, i read a few of ur entries, sounds like ur never bored wit ur man, haha go you! So does this mean you've had sex b4? aight well good diary! [boycrazedchic] 2002-07-16 14:27:18

neat.....i think haha hey hey hey! it's me again! lol. i would talk to you...but your away message is up. anywho, you naughty girl! *wink* heh...i have never heard of the 'kinky dice'. o well. now i have. but i'll ttyl. byes for now girl. ~nicole~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv] 2002-07-16 14:23:35

neat.....i think haha WOW, Glad you had some fun! *wink* [BringOnTheRain] 2002-07-16 14:16:38

Base 3 Soundz like ya had a prettay kewl time w/ ya boy in da back of a car, lol. tytzerz I neva heard of those dices b4, lol. But anywayz take care. =) [Ice] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-16 00:55:21

Base 3 Hmm someone's been takin viagra I see. Well I personally say to hell with the dice. I"m too impatient lol jk. cya around! [InsanitysLover] 2002-07-15 22:33:29

Base 3 hey! i just wanted to say thanx for all the comments :'( youre my biggest fan! lol anywayz i was planning on reading your whole diary til i realized it was 130 is pages...i have a 1st grade reading potential so i just stuck with these two pages (im pathetic i know) lol anywayz, i hope you have fun with your "kinky sex toyz" lmao increase the peace or sum shit and thanx muches [PoSeRs_SuCk] 2002-07-15 18:31:01

Base 3 See, that freaky shit is soo addicting. I bet ur like, woah who cares what i said b4 about not doing hand jobs and shit. lol. Thats funny. I might have to get me a pair of those dice.hehe [danes bia] 2002-07-15 16:13:12

Base 3 I am sooo going to have to get some of those dice! ahhh, i know exactly where to get them to,, hee hee, now who to use them on. Ya, weird thing with me is, i have never been eaten out, but i have given head several times, weird uh?? yup, well laters! [ErynM] 2002-07-15 15:58:32

Base 3 goofy kinky dice eh? lol...soo base 3? i never know what the bases mean. [bitesizdbo] 2002-07-15 04:10:43

Base 3 Sounds like fun.....well srry I havent wrote u in a lil cuz I'm workin around da clock workin on a 4 new songs and if der good I could get a record deal with Universal. Well g2g ttyl. ~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-15 02:20:34

Base 3 OMG! I've seen those in Spencer's Gifts! They are too funny! I need to get some. :-) [BringOnTheRain] 2002-07-15 02:12:03

Base 3 Haha, sounds like fun..good way to go, always get the guy back! haha...well, have fun! [SickCycleCarousel] 2002-07-15 02:11:58

i am so exhausted I alwayz wanted to see MIIB 2. =) Think I might try ta catch a glimpse of it sometym. I gotta jetz, t-kz. [Ice] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-15 00:47:27

i am so exhausted HEY.....any one who wants my pictures just IM me at lilblondie0my(thats a zero not an O) and i'll let ya see all of em. they ubber cute:).....im soo simple to understand how to put em all on a page. haha. and pockeyluckyduckyinlove(or whatever haha) you can IM me there too. hehe [Sweet Melissa] 2002-07-14 22:51:02

i am so exhausted Woo!! Sounds like we've both had a rough week. I'm sorry for neglecting your comment box. I'm so ashamed :( But i'm back in town :) ttyl. [InsanitysLover] 2002-07-14 21:52:48

i am so exhausted daamn!!!! hunny1!i would be h ella exhaustd 2! [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-14 16:21:31

i am so exhausted dayum is the right word, girl! you've had quite a week! *sigh* there's nothing to doooo....and i'm hungry! i think i'm going to go eat. i hope you get to go see joey soon! i'll talk to you later. byes for now. hey...do you mind if i IM you though? but for some reason i won't tell you MY s/n....cause i'm all over-protective...and i don't talk to people i don't know. lol. but i'll ttys. byes. ~pokey~ aka ~babble box~ *wink* [pokeyluckyduckyinluv] 2002-07-14 13:32:35

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Oh babes, i am so sorri, if u really want to become bulemic again, go ahead, but i just say be careful, cause i mean, i dont want u to do it really, u r perfect the way u r, but i know i cant stop u, so just be careful okay? 8pm? wow, that is so weird, i used to have to be in at that time all the time, no matter what i was doing, but now i talked to my mom, and i am in at 10 every night unless if i am with my gf's or with my parents, yup, well talk to ur dad, and have fun painting ur nails, ur bra sounds cool! [ErynM] 2002-07-14 10:20:33

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Damn dat sux u gota be in at 8 O'clock..........But hey go straight up to your da tell himu ain't no 5 year old and u are 16 now and I need to be aloud to do more stuff. Well ttyl, $BOB$ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-13 14:17:57

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Tiss 16 she says......and yes, my dad is a control freak. but usually hes ok on it, but now its not fair cause i have to work during the days and he won't let me go out at nights and this is pissing me off entirely. [Sweet Melissa] 2002-07-13 02:44:21

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH hey hunny bunches of oats!! OMG THAT SUX!! thats sooooo early geeeeeeeseeeee how old are u ????? ur dad sounds like a control freak! [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-13 02:35:20

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Dat sux ya dad restrict'n ya from lotsa stuff. =( U gettin me kinda worried but if u wanta do it I'll b rootin fo ya a bit, not all da way though. Just dun hurt yaself too bad k? =) Hope ya hab fun paint'n ya nailz. Take care. [Ice] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-13 02:05:00

dang I HATE when that happens! [SweetChicky] 2002-07-12 12:23:05

dang im sorry [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-12 01:37:55

1 more day hey babe i disagree with eryn i think us hould tell joey because its important to be honost dispite the outcome. and yeah thats about it ur lucky makeing all that money! i made $60 yesterday [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-12 01:36:20

dang Nice entry......brovo i'll give u an academy award for best entry. ~BOB~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-12 00:02:48

1 more day Aww maynz, ya gotta wake up at 7 againz, what a drag. =( But hey u get paid right? Hehehehe, I wish I could work cause I got like $3 or somethin left seriously dat is in my wallet, lol. Well I gotta jetz n play some moe DDR maybe, heheh take carez. [XtremeIce] 2002-07-11 22:09:00

1 more day hehe, I know what dice ur talkin about. i was gonna get those. One dice names body parts and the other tells what to do. lol..those are cool. Oh and what mad eu and joey come to that decsision about handjobss and shit? [Danes Bia] 2002-07-11 18:44:30

1 more day What happened between Josh and Grey? Well okay, they r best friends i guess, or pretty good friends, and then when Josh started going out with me, Grey became an asshole to him because of me. He would tell Josh to break up with me, because he shouldn't rock the cradle because of my age, and he has tried to hook josh up with other girls while he was going out with me, he made josh kiss another girl, wel not made, but pretty much encouraged it, and it hurt me so much, and like i was so sad and mad while Josh was away i wrote a romance story and grey heard about it, i dont know how, and read it, and was pissed at me because he thought the main characters were of him and josh, but they weren't, it was of josh and alex. okay does this pretty much explain it?? [ErynM] 2002-07-11 13:20:55

1 more day Okay, here is the situation on cutting myself. I was in Sabara, everything fine, joking with josh, my bf about bleeding, and broken plastic and things in his eyes, etc... and he is joking, and i was like, i could do this until i bled (i was holding onto a plastic knife in my palm, not anything bad) and he says, ya, well i have complete control over ur body, (he was squeezing my hand with the knife in it harder) and he said, or i could do this, and he grabbed the end of a broken peice of plastic and slashed it across his wrists and cut himself deep, and it scared me so much, that i said, ya? how could u do that to me? how could u hurt urself? that pain is worse than when i go like this (and i cut my wrist to, deeper and harder than his) and i mean i was crying my eyes out at how he did that, and it scared the shit out of me, and i mean i can talk to him, i guess, just i dont want to let all my shit out on him, i dont want to trouble him with everything that happens to me, i mean he just learned a couple days ago i have been sexually abused 2 times before, and he only learned yesterday i was a test tube baby, he thought my dad ran away, and see, i mean i cant dump things on him. I have NEVER been able to talk to anyone at all, i mean i dont tell my friends a lot of stuff, so see, it isn't like i dont want to talk to him, or i cant, i just dont know how, see what i am talking about here? sorri to ramble, gotta run~! [ErynM] 2002-07-11 13:17:36

1 more day Ya dis is Bob........ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-10 22:20:04

1 more day Yo wad up dis is Bob......and thing of advice watch out for da llamas they will steel your car. ~BOb~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-10 21:28:17

1 more day Thanks for the comment..after a while it turned into a bunch of half truths and I never put the whole story in it so I would probably think of a new diary to start over with. I kind of want to start everything over with my life. [Tiredllama] 2002-07-10 19:23:21

1 more day o im not letting joey settle anything for me, but i think that he has a right to know that someone told HIS GIRLFRIEND that she was going straight to hell........but joey's not gonna do anything.what happened between josh and grey? [Sweet Melissa] 2002-07-10 19:14:44

1 more day OKay here was what i was thinking, (sorri to relate this to my life, but it is all i know) so like, my bfs friend grey has been getting into my email account, and i was really REALLY pissed off at it, and josh noticed something, and so i told him, and he wanted to talk to Grey about it, and settle it so on, but i was like no, cause i mean i have seen Grey and Josh together, i dont like it, and ne wayz... i just think u should settle it with this guy and not have joey do it for ya, i mean i totally agree with the argument u have with him, but i dont think u should let joey settle it for ya. I hope that helps explain what i am saying more. Much love! [ErynM] 2002-07-10 18:47:20

STUPID MOTHER f***ER I HATE YOU!!!! OMG! tHAT IS exactly what Harry does to me, so grrrr, A lot of guys SUCK so much dont they? well dont let him get to u, and i dont know, i dont think u should tell joey about what he said, if u were thinking about it, but ne wayz... have fun. Luv ya lots babes, dont go to crazy, breathe! always remember to breathe! [ErynM] 2002-07-10 18:32:32

STUPID MOTHER f***ER I HATE YOU!!!! 1. the virgin mary is still a virgin because she did not have intercourse....God blessed the child within her and she was still a virigin because she had never had sex. 2.my belly buttons fine i took it out 3. i wasn't gonna do that on christmas justin is just stupid! im talking about b-days and those nights where you just really feel close to each other typa thang. [Sweet Melissa] 2002-07-10 15:44:19

STUPID MOTHER f***ER I HATE YOU!!!! Melissa! Don't pierce your belly button by yourself! Go to a place and get it done! Why did you do that anyway? Bri [SinginChick] 2002-07-10 12:05:17

STUPID MOTHER f***ER I HATE YOU!!!! ur friend sounds like an uber-jerk! lol seriously,he keeps talking about sinning and how its all wrong but he was sinning too when he told u that u were going straight to hell, so he shouldn't talk about what he doesn't understand. but seriously, the fingering and hj thingy. i think its good u guys arent gonna do it a lot b/c i mean ur still young and something might happen...anyways, just a suggestion, but im not so sure u should do that on christmas cuz it may offend the man upstairs...:) ttyl! [bitesizdbo] 2002-07-10 03:19:43

STUPID MOTHER f***ER I HATE YOU!!!! hey babe! omg what a fucking jerk!! im not christian, im jewish but if one of my temple buddies ever said that to me i would fucking sock em!!!!! and its not a sin!!!!! no offense lol but like i duno!!!, its up to you. and i have a question?? dont think im trying to be mean but how is virgin mary a virgin if she had a son? [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-10 02:24:37

STUPID MOTHER f***ER I HATE YOU!!!! U bet dat was a rude. If a friend told me somethin like dat I'd b hella pissed. U had da perfect right to block him n call him a prick. =) Well I gotta jetz, try ta take out all ya anger on a non breakable object k, somethin that wun hurt ya. =) Take care of yaselfz. [Ice] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-10 01:51:47

STUPID MOTHER f***ER I HATE YOU!!!! Thanx for writing in my diary IM me some time if you have AOL IM at LIL b Baller417 ~Bob~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-10 01:27:20

STUPID MOTHER f***ER I HATE YOU!!!! Yo god damn u got a crazy diary....u dont know me and I dont know you but da names Bob and i'm 16 and live in colorado springs.....you should check out my diary entrys some times and good luck wid your friend problems. ~Bob~ [LIL b Baller] 2002-07-10 01:22:34

hey you guys...read all this, its intresting Kewl survey ya got thea, it was prettay interesting. =) I dink Vanilla Coke iz a tasty drink too, hehe. [Ice a.k.a. Albert] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-09 21:54:49

hey you guys...read all this, its intresting That was awesome, I wish I had a copy of those questions. Me and Mike are living together, but arent married. [Holly83] 2002-07-09 19:33:13

hey you guys...read all this, its intresting Hehe, Im gonna steal your survey thingy. Ummm, how can i explain this whole operation thing without grossing you out? hehe [danes bia] 2002-07-09 19:21:04

hey you guys...read all this, its intresting thats because all her songs are based on past relationships [punk tastic] 2002-07-09 19:00:13

hey you guys...read all this, its intresting To answer your question....Yes, Justin feels the same way. If you would like, you can read his diary under the name Crymeariver. [BringOnTheRain] 2002-07-09 18:31:14

hey you guys...read all this, its intresting hey! that was cute!!!! AHH my friend mike likes to get naked alot too lol. [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-09 15:23:56

ok lots to say....i think Whats a yaffa block?lol [Danes Bia] 2002-07-09 12:08:41

ok lots to say....i think 7 n da mornin!?!? Daym dat hella early. I would probably b all sleepy hehehe. Well I gotta goz, t-kz. {Ice} [XtremeIce] 2002-07-09 01:05:51

ok lots to say....i think hi! lol u dont sound stupid about being scared of losing joey. i think its so sweet that u love him so much! by the way, i use uber a lot! lol now we have that in common! thanks for commenting [bitesizdbo] 2002-07-09 00:36:30

ok lots to say....i think Well thats good. well i had to work today and work on my house and than go wokr on my older bros truck [italian romeo] 2002-07-08 23:39:24

ok lots to say....i think hey babe!!! id ont know what to say im sooo hyper!! lol i dont know why im sorry things arent going super good for u but im sure they will get 100 times better!! [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-08 23:34:28

ya know..... lol i love u ur soo cute!!! i believe joey too ;-) [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-08 23:30:54

I aM gOiNg To CrY awwwwww!! babe im srry i still love yah! [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-08 23:25:19

he loves me.....he loves me not......HE LOVES ME! Way to go Melissa, life is so wonderful... And love is vene more! Enjoy it as best as you can:) [Blue Dolphin] 2002-07-08 04:52:25

he loves me.....he loves me not......HE LOVES ME! hey! im happy ur happy...anyways, thanks for always replying to my entries. im not on a lot and i usually get kicked off the compy a little after i get on it so im sorry i havent been able to comment on ur every entry. thanks again! [bitesizdbo] 2002-07-08 04:05:06

he loves me.....he loves me not......HE LOVES ME! Hey, I can understand how you feel about the whole fingering thing. Dont do anything until your READY. If he cares for you, hell understand, no biggie. Those arent the things that make the realtionship neways. [danes bia] 2002-07-08 00:00:24

he loves me.....he loves me not......HE LOVES ME! Right on, hehehe, church iz a prettay kewl peaceful place ta go to. =) Hope u lyke it n continueing going ta chruch. =) [Ice] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-07 21:34:25

he loves me.....he loves me not......HE LOVES ME! Hey that is cool about him calling u, and i understand about the fingering and stuff like that, i am feeling like that with josh right now, but not just about that stuff, but i dont want to do anything sexual with him right now, i mean hugs r good, i need hugs, etc... but like ahhh guys and their testosterone, etc... but i hope u and joey keep being happy. Luv ya lots! [ErynM] 2002-07-07 21:29:34

ya know..... I'm guessin n hop'n wid ya itz a bad day ta cause if he was actually like dat...ehhhh... u know. But hey, dun worry bout it, it seems like he'z probably a pretty nice dude frum what ya described in ya diary. Sometimez people just gotta let out some steam ya know. =) Take care of yaselfz. -[Ice]- [XtremeIce] 2002-07-07 14:45:41

ya know..... yea see thats what i was hoping for, but he obviously didn't try that hard. because THAT NIGHT i went to FREAKING WALMART and saw dozens of them in the check out line:/.......so i dunno [Sweet Melissa] 2002-07-07 13:57:52

ya know..... hey, Dont stress over small things like that with Joey. I mean I know you prob think hes like the perfetc guy, but he IS gonna have some faults. he prob did get mad, cuz I bet he did try to get the card, then you just put him down. But us girls cant control things liek that, right?! Well, me and Dane worked things out, so its good. Just dont pick on him too much, you wouldnt want him doing that to you I bet. Guys can tend to have tempers...lol. Well gotta run, hope everything inb the future is fine. [Danes Bia] 2002-07-07 11:47:48

ya know..... Melissa, I hope your days will get better, I amsure they will, you just have to get out of the house even if it is alone, go to the beach, go out for walk. watch people, go roller blading, I don't know even if you don't have any friends to hang out with just go out yourself and apreciate the sun and all that surrounds you:) If you want to e-mail me, I don't know just for some talk... inkombatgirl@hotmail.com [Blue Dolphin] 2002-07-07 07:11:12

ya know..... I totally agree with famouslinz, if i had enough energy i would write about the fireworks i saw with my neighbor, or this weird hang up call i always seem to get, or how paranoid i am, or how i remember this purse i am convinced someone stole from me cause i had ALL my PollyPocket stuff in it, and how it had my make up in it, and how i am obsessed with my purses, but not anyone elses, etc.. but hope ur hair came out okay, and hope u and joey fix up whatever was wrong. I need to see u 2 okay. You r both SOO good for each other! [ErynM] 2002-07-06 23:47:22

ya know..... Lol, I absolutley love people like you who just talk about it all, no matter what's going through the head you just tell it like is, even though I dont have a clue what half of it is about I really enjoyed reading it cause i write like that too [FamousLinz] 2002-07-06 20:59:31

ya know..... LOL at the thought of writing an entry while you're doing your hair. [SheSeemsSweet] 2002-07-06 17:48:06

I aM gOiNg To CrY thanks for the comment in my diary and dont feel bad i am not doing anthing i am just online talking to no one on msn yahoo or even aim so i am onlie do nada and ps i have more songs after that entry if u wanted to read [italian romeo] 2002-07-05 23:25:19

I aM gOiNg To CrY Hi! Awww..don't cry hun! Island Girl [IslandGirl] 2002-07-05 21:23:19

I aM gOiNg To CrY Hey you can play a good ole game of solitare too ;) hehe jk. Updating your diary isn't so bad!! Want a tissue? I hope you find fun soon. Good luck:) [InsanitysLover] 2002-07-05 21:16:07

IM LONELY!!! i completely relate on the "all my friends are gone" issue. all my remaining friends have to work, also. ::sigh:: oh yeah, i also pierced my bellybutton myself. i didnt bleed @ all, actually, and it didnt hurt @ all. at least you put a real ring in it, i kept a safety pin in there. well, ttyl ~amber [xxShiLtyxx] 2002-07-05 21:10:50

IM LONELY!!! I'm leaving this comment to all my Favorite Diarists. Some of you may remember getting comments from me. Some of you may not because I haven't left comments in everyone's diary yet. I just want to let everyone know that I have a new diary under the name BringOnTheRain. The diary under AHeartbeatAway will not update anymore. There was a problem with it or something, I'm not sure. So, for those who leave me comments regularly, please refer to the new diary. Thanks so much and I'm looking forward to getting back to all of your diaries again. :-) [AHeartbeatAway] 2002-07-05 17:44:42

IM LONELY!!! Sucks that all ur friends and ur b/f is gone! and i peircd my belly button too...it didnt hurt and didnt bleed either. lol! U ran into the wall? omg...OUCH! [SweetChicky] 2002-07-05 16:22:40

Melissa gets.....whats Melissa wants.... U pierced yaself!?!? Sweetzzzz. Dun worry Melz, I bet u'll make it through even though u probably miss him hella. Try ta rememba da good tymz, hehehe, dat usually workz fo me, sometimez, not alot but itz worth a try. =) Happy 4th of July!!! Wahoooooooooooooooooooo USA, hehehe. [Ice] [XtremeIce] 2002-07-05 02:26:41

Melissa gets.....whats Melissa wants.... OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!! BoOM!! kAzAmm!!! poP!! **FiReWorKx** hEhe im a LosER>! hAPpy 4th!! LuV ya XoxO [ToOsWeEt2eAt] 2002-07-05 02:08:01

Melissa gets.....whats Melissa wants.... Babes u will make it, trust me, it isn't that long. i mean i went 91 days without josh, that is A LONG TIME and now look at me now, i think i am a much better more self dependent, rather than co dependent person. yay me. I want my belly button peirced so bad! [ErynM] 2002-07-04 22:36:31